I have a conundrum. For my reaearch methods class, I have to create and investigate a topic, and I’m interested in abusive relationships. Originally, I wanted to research how the relationship btwn one’s parents/siblings affected that person’s romantic relationship. But given the time constraint and limited population, I don’t think I’d be able to get good findings. That, and the subject can be kinda sensitive to some.

I was looking articles up rn, and I found one on gender perception of condoms. If a man inclines to using one, he’s responsible and safe, yet if a woman wants to use one, she’s percieved as the opposite. But I don’t know what I’d want to investigate with that. And I have to work in a group, so I don’t think people want to talk about that.


Everyone at home is giving me shit for going out so much and I just placed a couple books for my gender and sexuality class on reserve at B&N and I wanna pick them up tonight (in an hour or so) so I can read them and at least do something productive. But I doubt I can get them tonight bcus it’s “late” already and someone’s probably gonna have to go w me. But I don’t need anyone to go with me, I am almost 20 years old goddamnit

I want to dye my hair bc it looks disgustingly orange-y brown and I want it either an ombre or a red. But if I get it ombre I’ll have to bleach my ends and I don’t want to bleach my hair, I don’t want to look white. And I’ve always wanted red hair. And I want to chop off my hair but my face is too fat to sustain such a haircut. 

I also want to get a phd in whatever so I can go on tv shows and talk shit on people. That’s my calling in life, I have found it, and what a weight off of my shoulders for finding what is is that I was put on God’s green earth for. 

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That’s it, I’ve figured out what I’m gonna do with my adult life. I’m gonna go live in Vancouver and then meddle around in Amsterdam. But then I’ll die in LA

I’ll fulfill my lifelong fantasy of being on Degrassi and then my new fantasy of living in TFIOS

Oh no I like the movie P.S. I Love You

Since when did I become so emotional

I need to look up info for my informative speech on HIV/AIDS for next week. And also it was Alex’s first day of his internship and I feel like a 50’s housewife who’s just waiting for her husband to get back from work so he can tell me how his day went. I have to wait until 5 for this shit.

Also, I wanna cut my hair bc it’s getting too long and it’s getting caught under my armpits and in the seat belts and it’s been a full year since I’ve cut it or done anything to it other then cutting my sad little side bangs into even sadder front bangs or dyeing it with Japanese box dye color. 

How funny. I’m going to a wedding on Saturday w Alex and his family and I’m gonna wear a dress I wore to my friend’s quince three years ago. He was also at that quince and we danced together that night. Three years later, and ten months into our relationship, I’ll wear the dress again! I wonder if he’ll remember it. 

I had a dream that there were zombies, and it was me and the Scooby gang, plus Spiderman and Gwen and it turned out that the mastermind behind the zombies was Jimmy Neutron: Boy Genius. 

I’m downloading good music to go HAM tonight so I can argue with my soc prof and beast that final. And also to study for my biopsych and calc final. Two mORE DAYS MF

» Survey #133 : Personal & Random


1. Have you ever had someone pick you up off the ground & carried you? He picks me up and squats me

2. Are you a flirty person? No, I’m too awk

3. Do you like coffee? How about tea? Coffee ehh, tea yes.

4. Where exactly was your first kiss? Under a tree just outside of my chemistry class

5. The last store you went to was…? Fusion Tea Bar

6. A name you hate with a passion? I hate everyone and their names

7. Do you have a friend named Alex? Hehehe yeesss, he’s more than a friend tbh

8. The last person you held hands with? Alex

9. How about the last movie you saw? The Amazing Spodermin

10. Did you like it? I suppose so  ;~;

11. What is your favorite type of water (ex. arrowhead)? Free water

12. Have you ever been to Warped Tour? Nah

13. Do you know anyone who wears fur? Nah

14. When was the last time you were on myspace.com? My sister never let me make one

15. How often do you cuss? Moderate

16. Have you ever cussed out a teacher? Nah,

17. Do you know how many kids are at your school? 5K

18. What did you think of the movie Juno? Eh

19. When was the last time you had butterflies? Last week

20. How often do you eat meat? Every other day

21. What grade did you meet your best friend in? I don’t remember

22. Would rather be loved or love someone? Both!

23. Last time you cleaned your room? A few days ago

24. Have you ever gotten clothes from the kids section of Target when you were over the age of 10? Nah, I was a chubby kid

25. Are you more of a science/math person or english/history person? Or how about science/history or something like that? I wish I was good at science/math, but prob math/english

26. What is your biggest fear? Something happening to my family

27. Have you ever been cheated om in a relationship? Nah

28. Your favorite children’s book you ever read? Eh

29. When you were little, would you have rather watched Cartoon Network or Disney Channel? Cartoon Network

30. Do you shave your arms? Sometimes

31. Since using the internet regularly, have you started to read less than you used to? Nah

32. Are you a big fan of the Harry Potter series? Nah

33. How often would say you pulled all-nighters, if you ever do? Never

34. Do you wear make-up on a daily basis? Ehh, some days 

35. Has a friend’s boyfriend/girlfriend ever had a problem with you for any reason? Definatly yes

36. How old were you when you learned to drive? 15

37. How many times a day do you find yourself cracking your joints, if at all? Once or twice

38. Do you find yourself feeling lazier when the weather is warm? Nah

39. Is there a particular sport you follow on a regular basis? None

40. Are you a fan of the TV show Friends? Nah

41. How old do you think is too old to sleep with a stuffed animal? You’re never too old!

42. If AC wasn’t an option, would you rather sleep with a fan on or with the windows open? Definately fan, people and animals and shit can crawl through a window.
43. Do you find it hard to fall asleep when you know you have to be up earlier than normal? Nah.

44. Do you style your hair in the same way every day, or do you prefer to switch it up? I have a bf I don’t care anymore